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maybe i don’t actually need you. maybe i’m finally realizing that you are a fucking asshole and i deserve better. everyone has been telling me for months that you’re bad news and you’re using me and i need to get away from you. but i try to see the best in people. i try to find the good things in the people i love. and i love you. i wish i could say “loved”, but that would be a lie because a disgusting twisted and pathetic part of me still loves you. there always will be that part of me, but as of this day and this night i’m not letting it control me anymore. i won’t let it because i did before and look where i am now. i’ve taken all the emotional and physical and mental abuse i can handle anymore and i’m broken. kind of dead inside because you’re not here anymore and you don’t love me anymore which haha you actually probably haven’t in a long time. and i’ve finally realized the shit you were putting me through. i want to say i wish you’d never been a part of my life. but i can’t do that either. you changed me as a person. you’ve done amazing things for me and my life. and i’ll never forget that. but i’ll also never forget how awful you’ve been to me and how you’ve used me and pretended like you cared and taken advantage of the feelings for you that you know i still have. so here’s goodbye. i love you and i hate you and here’s to moving on
i hope you have a great life

heartbreaks: so accurate
shrbr: ¨¨Λ¨¨ by »>—-“—-«< on Flickr.
Mum:Why are you crying?
Me:Oh, a TV show.
Me:Oh, a book.
Me:Oh, a movie.
Me:Oh, a fanfiction.
Me:Oh, a fandom.
Me:Oh, a tumblr post.
Me:Oh, a song.
Mum:Do you ever cry about real things?
Me:WHAT MUM THESE ARE REAL.
 You always stretch the importance of being nice to everyone and you're so against self harm but you are so mean to people. You call people out on any little thing. you post pictures of people on twitter and make fun of them!` how do you think that makes them feel? if someone likes to wear pounds of eyeliner, show their boobs, or do a weird face in their pictures, they can! Why do you have to be so mean? 
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I’m pretty unnecessarily rude and critical of people, I know. and yes I will always be concerned with self harm because I have a past with it. but I’ve never said “be nice to everyone!”. because I’m really just not that kind of a person and it would make me a hypocrite. I can’t just set every opinion and thought to the side and be super nice to everyone, it’s not who I am. but I do fully recognize that I can be really mean to people and I am truly trying to work on that.